Hate It!!!

i hate this week
this week is one of my worst weeks in my life till now...
y am i so unlucky
arghhh

i am so damn bloody pissed off again
no one understands me
no one at all
even my 'so called' best friends Vicky and Kavisha dun get me..
i am sure they hate me to hell

u noe sumthing
well i am not the type who lurves hiding sumthing about my life from everyone coz i noe if i do that i will get too stressed up...
that's y i prefer telling it out all on my blog

well this week,
after recess on wednesday, i had to report a guy coz got sum problem...
then i told KAVISHA to accompany me, so she followed..
prefects were having seniors meeting in the bd room so we waited for seniors to come out

and then one by one came out
then shash asked me y r u here
then i said i want to report a guy, then she asked Kavisha y r u here... she said Navjit asked me to follow her...

then i said where got, i din even ask u to follow... actually i forgotten that i told her to accompany me.. well my memory is not that good..
i am such a FORGETFUL person and kavisha noes that..
she was so damn bloody angry wif me when i returned to claz..
saw that even she don't understand me...
she sat all alone and i tried my level and level best to convince her but she is egoish that she dun even want to see my sorry face..

saw that
do u call that a fren
who doesn't even get you...

n on that same day itself before rcess and before she fought wif me
we were so happy laughing and laughing

and then kavisha like took out her small little clean and clear book to do maths working in it and then she showed us sumthing stupid which was the lettes of her name on each one and another page and when it came to the letter 'A' which is the ending of her name she said owh u guys cannot read this ready sorry... then we all gave a face and then she said i'll tell u later vicky and for Navjit owh i can't show it to u
wat does that means she is hiding sumthing bout me..

and then later on vicky got angry wif sumthing and kavisha asked vicky y u so angry... is there anything and then vicky said umm i'll tell u later there's sumthing...

u see!!! they are hiding lotz of things from me...
they hate me
when ever they talk rite they will like have their own secrets together...
and they will neva tell it to me and Amanda..

y does this always happen to me huh
hate my life

and u noe sumthing
i am not the only person who doesn't biliv in god
i found a partner ady..
sandy is the one...
we both don't biliv in god..
she dun biliv that god created the world and i dun biliv in god coz god has given me nothing in my life till today... he din give me friends nor happiness nor the smart brains!!! nothing, so y must i biliv he exists...

do u noe
every single day i cry
sandy thinks my life is betta then hers and i am simplily jz behaving childish..
that's all wrong
i have seen life more than you..
really

my life is completely a disaster
I am the UNLUCKIEST gurl on earth
when will be the happiest person on the earth for a day!!!
jz a single day..

i really wonder will that day even come???
well amanda thanks for ur company..
if u wasn't wif me i would be all alone in this world..
and i thought so many bad bad things bout you
i am so so so sooo sorry!!!
i really meant it..
i thought u was 'teruk' but u turned out to be so gud..

like wat people says you won't noe the real about that persomn till u luk inside her/his
heart...

and yeah
there is a new guy in my claz
his name is BRYAN TEH and he is so cute...
he is pretty smart
his english is also so perfect

i guess that's all for this week

Telling It Out

Y am i alwayz so unlucky
y does god alwayz giv me nothing bet sadness
y does he do that to me y??

Amanda i hate u
u purposely didn't put me, vicky and kavisha in..
we r ur only best frenz
and u did that to us..
how could u..

do u noe that when we all had misunderstandings kavisha and vicky wanted to break up our friendship.. and me too..
then i thought how would i feel if u guys leave me alone by myself one day..
and then i made the decision that we cannot leave u..
no matter wat u r still our friend..
it was so hard to convince Vicky and Kavisha to continue this relationship but at the end i managed to convince them

DO U NOE THAT!!!!

i hate u
now i regret y did i accept u back
y the heal did i do that..
yyyyyyyyy?????
i am alwayz unlucky
y does my frenz alwayz hurt me...

sumtimes kavisha leaves me..
and sumtimes vicky too

y do u all do that to me..
do u all hate me..
huh??
tell me plz...

kavisha
sumtimes u dun share ur secrets and problems wif me
n leave me alone sumtimes
y do u do that
and u even start being selfish sumtimes and when there is a chance where i will be alone u will always take that chance and leave me alone
y do u do that to me...

And vicky
u alwayz leave me alone in the clazz
and i have to sit alone..
and u over react sumtimes
y do u guys do that to me
aren't i ur fren..

even today during KH claz again i was left alone rite..
see

if u all hate me so much and dun trust me at all then why u guys call urself my best frenz!!!
y???

its not ur fault
its my lucks fault
i am memang unlucky
tell me
is there any day where i din weep my tears..
i cry each and everyday thinking how is my life goin to end up like..
how???!!!???

sandy thanks 4 accompaning me for this week
i lurve u so much!!
muaxxx

too much to say

lotz of things happened this week
sandy had so many problems that she had to go through
these problems were really serious this time..
she didn't wanted to share it with her gang so she came and told us her problems
us as in Me, Vicky, Kavisha, Amanda, Sangitaa, Shashfiny and Darshaini
she had some misunderstandings wif her frenz..
we tried our best to help her to solve her problems
for this few days she was spending much more time wif us than her gang...
i told her how many times to go and talk to them but she didn't want to...
she was with us all day
and then that day when we was going for KH clazz
sandy instead of following her gang she followed us and i saw joey telling Rissara and Brenda sumthing pointing at Sandy
Joey was also wondering y is Sandy like that
Joey was so sad
i felt like going on the spot and telling Joey everything but i was helpless coz
sandy stopped me!!!
Soon slowly by slowly..
we got Sandy back with her gang again..
Sandy u will neva be happy without them
They r one of the reasons of ur happiness
nobody would ever wanna loose wonderful frenz lie wat u got..
look at me until today i dun have a true fren..
u r considered really lucky to have them.. do u noe that...
n i was also so scared thinking that Joey will be thinking that i am trying to separate her and her frenz..
Really Joey i didn't even think about doing that in my dreams also
until today i really admire ur friendship with Brenda, Rissara and Sandy...
i always wished that i had frenz like that...
but too bad its not in my luck to have such frenz

exams

examz r on the way... just three more dayz.. i wish i had half of joey's and sandy's braain.. then i wouldn't need to worry so much..
hey guess wat. Joey lost her voice. Owh, pity her. Wish she gets bak her voice soon. K Joey.
Huh.
Today we didn't have gud or worst juniors coz joey says everyone deserves the best.
And everyone was teasing me about siddesh juz now bout what happened yesterday.
And then i jz stand and take wateva they say ( that was recommended to do by Joey ) hehe.
and then i was like lepakking outside of the claz but wif the pass of course n then had to go home once the bell rang..

anywayz i wun be online for i think around 2 weeks coz of examz k..
so see ya soon..
bb

Friday

hey guess wat... aunty forgot to pick me up today 4 skul.. how could she forget about me... huh damn angry lar. Called Baldeep n then she said that she'll pick me up. Owh, that was so nice of her n her mum. Thanks Baldeep. And then we both went to skul. We both wore baju kurung today. Then we had meeting around 1.30pm. Guess what we had the best junior and also the worst junior. The best junior for this week was Peviter. Give a big clap to him... And the worst junior i wouldn't like to mention who is it. Sorry.
Then we had literasi komputer. it was so boring and hot in the claz. Teacher was like jz writing on the board and no one was even listening to her. So bad lar.
then Darshaini, Sangitaa, Shashfiny and I started to chit chat in the claz... Shashy had damn bad flue.. She was like sneezing and sneezing and sneezing... Pity her.. Wish she gets betta... Then went to the computer lab for english lesson.
It wasn't that boring coz mej Zalifah was makin kinda few jokes... She's so funny and cute. I jz lurve her. Then we had to go for prefects recess. i got stucked with my damn shoes, the shoelaces... Huh...Argghhh...
So i went down like kinda late..
I hate to stay bak after recess coz seniors had to see me. Then we all went 4 a ceramah at the dewan. It was for gurlz only. I wanna tell u guyz wat n wat teacher talked boud but kinda lazy.. hehe... Then we went for KH claz and continued wif our kerja khusus... OMG!!! Exams are so closed and i haven't even touch the books... not even a single page... Owh wonder how am i gionna do my exam. Gud luck for ur exams Navjit!!! And now my mum told me tat i dun have to go for TAEKWANDO since i am sick... I am so happy. Hmmm i guess that's all for now.. See ya guys next time. Bye.

Friday

Today was the worst day of my life. I have neva faced such a bad day in my life!!! I thought i would fail...
First when a few of them like Sangitaa, Mun Chun and a few more more stood up... My heart was beating really fast. And then Joey said 'I'm sorry to say but ur duty really suxx.. then she said congratz u guyz pass..'
i was sitting so i knew i faill.,.
n started to cry lor... n she said i n siddesh must see mr tangga during recess..
he will tell uis we pass or faill
so we saw him n he said we pass... we can wear blue shirt ady..
n me..
i still wasn't happy...
hate today..
i hope none of the seniors are angry wif me...

Wednesday

I was so sad today coz Joey pin-point about each and everyone's duty!!! She told about me too. She said 'YOUR DUTY KINDA SUCK' !!! Owh reallly hurts... Anywayz truth is the truth... i was so sad.. I tried improving my duty but... hmmm i really dunno noe wats gonna be the ending.
its only n only n only two more days left lar..
so scared..
if i pass i'll be the happiest person on the earth on that day...
hmmm...