Telling It Out

Y am i alwayz so unlucky
y does god alwayz giv me nothing bet sadness
y does he do that to me y??

Amanda i hate u
u purposely didn't put me, vicky and kavisha in..
we r ur only best frenz
and u did that to us..
how could u..

do u noe that when we all had misunderstandings kavisha and vicky wanted to break up our friendship.. and me too..
then i thought how would i feel if u guys leave me alone by myself one day..
and then i made the decision that we cannot leave u..
no matter wat u r still our friend..
it was so hard to convince Vicky and Kavisha to continue this relationship but at the end i managed to convince them

DO U NOE THAT!!!!

i hate u
now i regret y did i accept u back
y the heal did i do that..
yyyyyyyyy?????
i am alwayz unlucky
y does my frenz alwayz hurt me...

sumtimes kavisha leaves me..
and sumtimes vicky too

y do u all do that to me..
do u all hate me..
huh??
tell me plz...

kavisha
sumtimes u dun share ur secrets and problems wif me
n leave me alone sumtimes
y do u do that
and u even start being selfish sumtimes and when there is a chance where i will be alone u will always take that chance and leave me alone
y do u do that to me...

And vicky
u alwayz leave me alone in the clazz
and i have to sit alone..
and u over react sumtimes
y do u guys do that to me
aren't i ur fren..

even today during KH claz again i was left alone rite..
see

if u all hate me so much and dun trust me at all then why u guys call urself my best frenz!!!
y???

its not ur fault
its my lucks fault
i am memang unlucky
tell me
is there any day where i din weep my tears..
i cry each and everyday thinking how is my life goin to end up like..
how???!!!???

sandy thanks 4 accompaning me for this week
i lurve u so much!!
muaxxx

too much to say

lotz of things happened this week
sandy had so many problems that she had to go through
these problems were really serious this time..
she didn't wanted to share it with her gang so she came and told us her problems
us as in Me, Vicky, Kavisha, Amanda, Sangitaa, Shashfiny and Darshaini
she had some misunderstandings wif her frenz..
we tried our best to help her to solve her problems
for this few days she was spending much more time wif us than her gang...
i told her how many times to go and talk to them but she didn't want to...
she was with us all day
and then that day when we was going for KH clazz
sandy instead of following her gang she followed us and i saw joey telling Rissara and Brenda sumthing pointing at Sandy
Joey was also wondering y is Sandy like that
Joey was so sad
i felt like going on the spot and telling Joey everything but i was helpless coz
sandy stopped me!!!
Soon slowly by slowly..
we got Sandy back with her gang again..
Sandy u will neva be happy without them
They r one of the reasons of ur happiness
nobody would ever wanna loose wonderful frenz lie wat u got..
look at me until today i dun have a true fren..
u r considered really lucky to have them.. do u noe that...
n i was also so scared thinking that Joey will be thinking that i am trying to separate her and her frenz..
Really Joey i didn't even think about doing that in my dreams also
until today i really admire ur friendship with Brenda, Rissara and Sandy...
i always wished that i had frenz like that...
but too bad its not in my luck to have such frenz

exams

examz r on the way... just three more dayz.. i wish i had half of joey's and sandy's braain.. then i wouldn't need to worry so much..
hey guess wat. Joey lost her voice. Owh, pity her. Wish she gets bak her voice soon. K Joey.
Huh.
Today we didn't have gud or worst juniors coz joey says everyone deserves the best.
And everyone was teasing me about siddesh juz now bout what happened yesterday.
And then i jz stand and take wateva they say ( that was recommended to do by Joey ) hehe.
and then i was like lepakking outside of the claz but wif the pass of course n then had to go home once the bell rang..

anywayz i wun be online for i think around 2 weeks coz of examz k..
so see ya soon..
bb

Friday

hey guess wat... aunty forgot to pick me up today 4 skul.. how could she forget about me... huh damn angry lar. Called Baldeep n then she said that she'll pick me up. Owh, that was so nice of her n her mum. Thanks Baldeep. And then we both went to skul. We both wore baju kurung today. Then we had meeting around 1.30pm. Guess what we had the best junior and also the worst junior. The best junior for this week was Peviter. Give a big clap to him... And the worst junior i wouldn't like to mention who is it. Sorry.
Then we had literasi komputer. it was so boring and hot in the claz. Teacher was like jz writing on the board and no one was even listening to her. So bad lar.
then Darshaini, Sangitaa, Shashfiny and I started to chit chat in the claz... Shashy had damn bad flue.. She was like sneezing and sneezing and sneezing... Pity her.. Wish she gets betta... Then went to the computer lab for english lesson.
It wasn't that boring coz mej Zalifah was makin kinda few jokes... She's so funny and cute. I jz lurve her. Then we had to go for prefects recess. i got stucked with my damn shoes, the shoelaces... Huh...Argghhh...
So i went down like kinda late..
I hate to stay bak after recess coz seniors had to see me. Then we all went 4 a ceramah at the dewan. It was for gurlz only. I wanna tell u guyz wat n wat teacher talked boud but kinda lazy.. hehe... Then we went for KH claz and continued wif our kerja khusus... OMG!!! Exams are so closed and i haven't even touch the books... not even a single page... Owh wonder how am i gionna do my exam. Gud luck for ur exams Navjit!!! And now my mum told me tat i dun have to go for TAEKWANDO since i am sick... I am so happy. Hmmm i guess that's all for now.. See ya guys next time. Bye.

Friday

Today was the worst day of my life. I have neva faced such a bad day in my life!!! I thought i would fail...
First when a few of them like Sangitaa, Mun Chun and a few more more stood up... My heart was beating really fast. And then Joey said 'I'm sorry to say but ur duty really suxx.. then she said congratz u guyz pass..'
i was sitting so i knew i faill.,.
n started to cry lor... n she said i n siddesh must see mr tangga during recess..
he will tell uis we pass or faill
so we saw him n he said we pass... we can wear blue shirt ady..
n me..
i still wasn't happy...
hate today..
i hope none of the seniors are angry wif me...

Wednesday

I was so sad today coz Joey pin-point about each and everyone's duty!!! She told about me too. She said 'YOUR DUTY KINDA SUCK' !!! Owh reallly hurts... Anywayz truth is the truth... i was so sad.. I tried improving my duty but... hmmm i really dunno noe wats gonna be the ending.
its only n only n only two more days left lar..
so scared..
if i pass i'll be the happiest person on the earth on that day...
hmmm...

On Saturday

Yesterday nite b4 i slept i started thinking about friendship... and the first friendship that came to my mind was joey and her gang's friendship... i really wished i had that kind of friendship in life... isn't it... not like the type of frenz i got... the best among my gang is vicky... juz dun like it when she leaves me alone in the clazz n goes to bilik disiplin n also when she is in a very bad mood... she is not like the rest...
kavisha's also alright... jz she can't talk to me bcoz of her mom sumtimes... she and me can fight all day like cat and dog. I jz dun like Amanda among my gang... She is the worst there. She is so childish. She always talks about us behind our back n worst to worst she creates an imaginary boyfren for her self and tell us that her boyfren really exists. Which is so fake. She likes to be the leader (always). Jz wish I had true friendship like joey's friendship. She and her frenz are very lucky to have extraordinary frenz.
its so boring today... I had to wake up at 9.30 in the morning and had to get ready for taekwando lessons in my mom's centre...
peviter's mom will be fetching me at 10.15am. I had to take a quick and get ready...
was out by 10.15am but she only arrived at 10.30am...
so me n my stupid bro went... that teacher make us run like...
hhuuhh...
hate him. my legs n hand damn pain lar... he arhh neva think and ask us to do... i was jz waiting n looking at my watch ... hen will it be time to go bak.. luckyly peviter had to go out so we left at 11.30am.. thanks to him...
bak home and finished my Geografi Nota and Latihan... I borrowed Joey's book that day so have to giv it bak to her on Monday...
Sejarah project is almost done and Bm project almost starting... hehe...
Now i curi-curi using computer since my dad's asleep n mom and bro not at home....
n now have to go coz have to get ready for tuisyen... huh maths n english clazz... huh...